A letter to 2016
Sweet two thousand and sixteen,
I want to thank you for all that you've given me.
You have brought me joy and laughter,
pain and sorrow,
new adventures, friendships and love.
But most importantly a new outlook on life.
Right after new years I had to make a really difficult decision and to this day I still do not know if it was the right one. I guess I'll never find out. I was never brave enough to talk to someone about it. By the time I confessed everything to my mom it did not matter anymore, it had already happened. The build up of all my emotions that I had held in caused a outburst of tears. I think I cried for a good half an hour. And you can trust me on my word when I say that I do not cry easily, only with exceptionally good movies or songs. However it did learn me a lesson, talk to people about your problems. Some people actually do know life stuff and can help you with things like that.
During my time still in high school I learned that no good things ever come easy. Always work hard and do your best for everything that you want to accomplish, that is how I eventually graduated. When I was done with school I got a lot of free time. By that time I had worked at my local supermarket for a while and a felt like I was doing-, learning nothing new besides earning money. Although I didn't know it than, it thought me a significant and crucial life lesson. Do what you love, because you have to do it for the rest of your life.
After graduation I went on holiday with my friends. We had planned it in the Christmas break and were undoubtedly very excited. We had a end of exams party until 12 or so and after it we went directly to the airport. Our flight was at 4 so we could get as much out of the week as possible. Our destination was Albu Feira in Portugal, and gosh what was it beautiful. We didn't do a lot of sightseeing though, mainly we just partied. It is one of those trips that you can let go of all responsibilities and just do what you want. I loved it. Although it did shock me what a free me was okay with and I learned that being free is totally fine but being careless is not.
Nobody likes to be judged, nobody. Some might not care what others say about them if there wrong, but when there right it always hurts. A friend once told me that when she first saw me she perceived me as arrogant, and that she later found out that I wasn't. Bother me it did not but it did make me think about how I want to be viewed by others. Also I wouldn't judge people on their first appearance as I knew I myself didn't want to. "Treat others like you want to be treated yourself". Who knew that this globally known and very wise saying was actually true..
In the short period of time that I've been on this lonesome journey away from all that I call home I have learned a lot. For one thing you learn who your real friends are and who aren't. I found out which ones actually care and which ones I truly want to be friends with. Furthermore I figured out that it is not important how many friends you have, it does not matter who you sit with at lunch or how many likes you got on your new Instagram post. In the end it is way more important that you're loved deeply instead of loved widely.